"...health is failing me rather quickly..."
analogman possibly you may be having some emotional issues in regard to your current health status (which is indeed very common). And actually could be related to "depression" which is indeed treatable...
If you have been feeling down for an extended period it may be a symptom of Chronic Depressing.
From the DSM 4 Criteria for Clinical Major Depression
Source:
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK36406/table/ch1.t1/ Depressive Diagnoses
Major Depressive Episode:
- 5 or more depressive symptoms for ≥ 2 weeks
- Must have either depressed mood or loss of interest/pleasure
- Symptoms must cause significant distress or impairment
- No manic or hypomanic behavior
Minor Depressive Episode:*
- 2–4 depressive symptoms for ≥2 weeks
- Must have either depressed mood or loss of interest or pleasure
- Symptoms must cause significant distress or impairment
- No manic or hypomanic behavior
analogman if you are experiencing the following symptoms you should likely seek medical help
Depressed Mood
Markedly diminished interest or pleasure in most or all activities
Significant weight loss (or poor appetite) or weight gain
Insomnia or hypersomnia
Psychomotor retardation
Fatigue or loss of energy
Feelings of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt
Diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness
Recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), or suicidal ideation, plan, or attempt
The good news is your General Practitioner can start you on a medication like SSRI's which are a class of anti-depressants that are very effective and have the least side effects.
That said... Please do not self medicate with alcohol which may only make matters worse.
I trust you'll be able to again find joy in your golden years that lay ahead.
We all must deal with death in a rational manner...
"Neither the sun nor death can be looked at with a steady eye." Francois de La Rochefoucauld
All the best on your wonderful journey analogman.
Always remember when one door closes another likely will open :)