gtilford wrote:
Just Five More Minutes
So it’s Father’s Day weekend it means so many different things to each of us. I thought I would share my thoughts today because mine are of my own greed I am ashamed to say. Most of you that will read this do not know me at all, but I am going to share a bit of my story. I will be 62 this year and for the past 8 years I have been battling health issues galore. Culminating in the last 2 years while we have all dealt with COVID, I have received diagnosis of fibromyalgia, ruptured L4, in need of knee and possibly hip replacements, peripheral neuropathy(look that one up it’s a doozy) and tongue cancer of which the supposed cure almost killed me and I still got to keep the cancer.
Why did I share all this, it’s not for pity, it’s not for your prayers, it’s because there has not been a single day in the last year that sometime in that 24 hour period I have not wanted to end my life. Then for some reason just out of the blue, it dawned on me today that i have been greedy, It’s Father’s Day weekend I knew it was coming, my dad will have been gone 30 years next year just around this time. Not a single day in those 30 years have I not wished for just five more minutes, five minutes fishing at the lake, five minutes handing sticks of cured tobacco out of the kiln, Just Five More Minutes. Then I wondered, will my daughter want five more minutes when I’m gone?
You will all have your own thoughts this weekend and your own visits with your dad or grand dad. if they are still around. If you’re the son, daughter or grandchild with fathers out there make sure you give them an extra special hug this weekend because those moments aren’t there forever. Me well I’ve spent a year being greedy, have I done enough as a father to be worthy of those five minutes? At that moment I realized my greed when I thought of ending it, have I done all that I could to be worthy of her five more minutes. I am not sure I have and the worst part is, I will not know because I will be gone.
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I have many times wished for them same five minutes with my Mom and Dad. REJ.